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February 29, 2004
lauren hill - ex factor It could all be so simple But you'd rather make it hard Loving you is like a battle And we both end up with scars Tell me who I have to be To get some reciprocity See no one loves you more than me And no one ever will Is this just a silly game That forces you to act this way? Forces you to scream my name Then pretend that you can't stay Tell me who I have to be To get some reciprocity See no one loves you more than me And no one ever will [Hook] No matter how I think we grow You always seem to let me know It ain't workin', It ain't workin' (No, it ain't workin') And when I try to walk away You'd hurt yourself to make me stay This is crazy, this is crazy (This is crazy, uh-huh!) [Verse Two] I keep letting you back in How can I explain myself? As painful as this thing has been I just can't be with no one else See I know what we've got to do You let go, and I'll let go too 'Cause no one's hurt me more than you And no one ever will [Hook] No matter how I think we grow You always seem to let me know It ain't workin', It ain't workin' (It ain't workin' !) And when I try to walk away You'd hurt yourself to make me stay This is crazy, this is crazy Care for me, care for me! I know you care for me! There for me, there for me! Said you'd be there for me! Cry for me cry for me You said you'd die for me Give to me give to me Why won't you live for me Where were you when I needed you .. [wow, its amazing how much i can fit this song in with my current situation] February 28, 2004 yess, i was on str8 trip mode bout danny n chuck not getting my letters but today i got a letter back from danny, still waiting on chucks though. but danny sent me a pic. i took a pic of the pic wit my webcam.. im fina show yall. haha yesss.
i told you.. im gona make you hate me.. February 26, 2004 went to skoo today, from 1:30 till 2:30 like usual.. but in the morning before i went to school i got a call from my nigga jess. why that man is in fuckin JAPAN .. lol, we talked for hella long. it was 4 am japan time when he called me. he used a calling card or some crap. but uhm yeah man dat shit was off da hook. it was tite doh =) he told me all da stuff about wat he been doing, he went to the fuckin bar when he touched down and got drunk. lol, but hes only in japan untill 9am japan time, i duno when that was ourtime.. but he left japan already and i think he's either in.. or should be getting to manila, phillipines now. he said he would call me and tell me wsup, and he has a video camera so he gona get some coo footage n show me wat dat shit was like. haha i cant wait till he get bak doh. on and also he said he's gona be giong to see CATHY too!! =DDD omg man, i wana see wsup wit dat girl, havnt heard from her or seen her ass since like 2 summers ago.. =/ i hella miss her ass. but im so pissed at her fuckin stupid ass for gettin pregnant and having a baby by that fuckin faggot ass flip mother fucker.. man i wanted to fuckin beat ass when i heard dat shti.. man but whatever its her life..if she wana ho around das on her. i shoulda knew sumthin was up wit her n sex when she... oh umm..nvm haha. but uhh. skanywayz lol, went to help nick put together his home .. gym.. work out ...THIING.. i duno wat its called lol. but we still aint done wit dat shit. cuz i was late gettin over to his house since i stopped by sLz to talk to vivan.. then i chilled wit eva jenarae and sara for a bit becuz they're my buddies =) fuckin great man.. luv dem gurlz. but uhm..yeah so after we spent hella long tryin 2 do dat shit. nick had 2 go to skoo so im at home now =) laaaaaaaate February 25, 2004 woke up this morning at 8:30am by a call from my navy recruiter, he said they needed help at the jobfair today at hayward uhm..wuts it called.. centenial hall or some shit. but it was dumass raining and stuff earlier.. me and like 3 other recruits helped direct traffic and tell people where to go. they gave us a yellow raincoat and a neon orange hat. lol told dem foo's by time we leave, ima get dat fukin hat.. lol and i did. got dat shit sittin in my room rite now. nick seen it. lol savage. but uhh, yeah so then demario dropped me off at school, and uhm.. then went to nicks house. he hooked it up wit flash mx 2004, he showed me da flash sheit he made and dat shit str8 inspired me to make one of my own. lol str8 up sav mode lol. peep game http://www.angelfire.com/hero/tekbeetz/stick_guy.swf and http://www.angelfire.com/hero/tekbeetz/aliens2.swf February 23, 2004 yo! havnt really been posting about wut i been doin lately. so here beez an update. -FRIDAY- i didnt have no school, so in the morning i wrote chuck a letter because i hadn't written him since he been gone. so i wrote that.. had to get envelope n stamps off my mom so i didnt get to mail it till saturday morning. nick called me up. was like.. ey foo letz go runnin doh. so i was like aight. so i got ready, we headed over to marina and ran a mile. then walked it again to the pull-up and sit-up stations, did dat shit, talked about hella shit when the recruiters was tryin 2 recruit nick, and the asian guy had like a square grill, and he couldnt talk right. LOL! dat shit was hella funny, i couldnt stop laughin. then after dat nick dropped me off home. -FRIDAY NIGHT- uhh im kinda havin trouble remembering what we did. haha, lets see.. friday friday..OH yeah!! i think friday was the day that alan, wes, & kev had hit me up, tryin 2 see whatsup. so i had called up Sade and she was at the oakland ice skating rink in downtown oakland. so alan picked me up and we drove down there. went inside and it was DUMBASS cold inside there =/ . but i seen mr. hargrave & mr. tobin and some other teachers i knew, and umm.. seen hella friends in there ice skating.. reminded me of my senior skate night last year. it was hella fun =) stuff like thats good 2 go to cuz its like, some of the last events you're gona be going to with your friends before yall all graduate n go away n stuff like that. so yeah. i decided not to stay inside though cuz i felt like.. real out of place lol. so me and rosalva went outside to meet back up with alan wes & kev in the parking lot. they waited outside cuz they was smokin. so we kicked it in the parking lot for a bit, drank some e&j. then this bum came up to us well not realy bum.. but like a guy asking for money.. n i was like.. well i gota extra dollar so i gave it to him. it was all good cuz i felt bad since he was only asking if we had any pennies.. =/ so i gave him 100 pennies =-o in the form of a dollar ;D hoLLer at a doLLar baLLer =P haha but nah. then after that, borge called me and we met up with him. so we left ice skating, went to go pick up sara eva and jenarae from saras house in south hayward. went back over to boss market, picked up some liquor [hpnotiq, bacardi razz & jack daniels] went back to alans house to get the keys to the "mansion" on top the hill by lake chabot. drove up there and soon as we walked in, they was amazed at the veiw overlooking the city and how nice alans grandparents house was. i gota admit that shit is hella coo. we played around in there a bit too haha, but its all good had some drankz, had a flow session wit wes n' kev. then we got hungry so we cut out. after we ate alan wes and kev bounced 2 da house, me borge eva sara n jenarae rolled over 2 marcus house. he lost his phone in the club so he was pretty bummed off dat, and plus his car wasnt running. so we all chilled up in there and as soon as we got there he busted out 2 40 oz of mickeys. i wasl ike =-o lol HOOK IT UPPP. he was like go ahead crack it open they was both unopened too! omg i had a feild day. lol. chilled for a while, ended up bein knocked da fuk out on the floor behind the couch while everyone watches half baked. lol, they said i was snoring o_o nahhhh not mee =P woke up at like 5 am. walked my ass home cuz i wanted 2 go to sleep at home, got home at 5:15 am. knock da fuck out. -SATURDAY- got up to a wake up call from sara at like 8 am! man i was still sleep dawg! hung up, and went back to sleep. x_x . wrote danny a letter, got da stamps & envalope off my mom & mailed him & chucks shit. went online for hella long untill wes called me up and said come over to da tilt, my dads outta town. im like OH FA SHO so jess called me up cuz he heard bout it too, he came through to my house wit three 32oz bottles of mgd's he gave me one =) what a paL . then since jay was already gona pick me up to go kick it cuz i told him bout it too. he let jess get a ride wit us too, and white mikewas also in the car. we all rolled through to the apps. met up wit ray, wes & kev then white mike jay n jess left to go to brandons house to meet up with dwight jess & dwight burnt i guess. then jess went home like a beeitch, jay and alan left to go get eva sara n jenarae from eva's house, i called up nick like batch come thru. then i called up marcus like.. batch leme get dat 40 i had yesterday so he was like aight, went 2 pick dat up while jay n alan went 2 get some more drank and eva n' their crew. when they got back, we got da shit poppin. later in the night jess came back, then anthony medicello came thru. and d.kizz/dwight showed up too. so by the end of the night i had that mgd, that mickeys, and like a few cups of some of the vsop and the regular erk that they came back wit. and the rest is history.. =P -SUNDAY- went to church like usual, havnt been in like 3 weeks though =/ but ya gota love god doh huh?! its great =) after church came back 2 da hooouse.. got online and was chillin . then outta da blue sara had hit me up, talkin bout she was at da movies wit eva. so i was like oh koo wat yall watchin bla bla bla, asked nick if he wanted 2 go and then we went. we watched 50 first dates. it was pretty coo. afterwards i played some ddr. cuz i havnt played in years! lol im still good at it. then we cut, stood at nicks car talkin for a while, dropped off eva and sara at they crib. then nick drop me off over at jen's house cuz i told dat nigga jess i was gona come thru, we had to take care of some bizz over at berry's house.. but when i got there. he was asleep. lol so i kicked it and tlaked to jen & mel jess finally woke up and so he got dresed but then it was too late to go to berrys house by time he awoke, so wes came thru after he got off work, and i walked with both them down to wes house so i can get my glasses cuz i left it there last night after we kicked it. got my shit, and cut 2 da house. -TODAY- now here i am at school, white mike is thinking about joining the army so after school im gona meet him up at bayfair at the recruiting station and see wsup, if he cant get in the army we gona c wsup wit da navy.. cuz he dont gota high school deploma or a ged or nuthin so we gotta see. hopefuly we can get him in, but i dont know. sara wanted me to hit her up after she gets out of school so im gona do that too, then after whatever im most likely gona go kick it at wes house because his dad doesnt return untill wednesday, so yeah . aight man its 1:13 now, gota be to class in like 17 minutes. so aight ima end it here. post more later. ~ONE February 22, 2004 http://www.ifilm.com/filmdetail?ifilmid=2410176 <--LOL!!
my fuckin eyes hurt... February 21, 2004 i told you.. it aint that im lazy.. i just dont give a fuck. words of the day: fuck you.. bye. ..time to do a little renovating.. February 19, 2004 my nigg chuck called me up today.. i was in da library sleepin cuz i feel so sick and all of a sudden i geta fone call from some outta state area code n i answer n it was chuck. lol he said his voice is goin out cuz he been yellin. lol i read eva blog she said danny ma call her too da uther day. daz so great man. i miss dem doods. cant wait for my turn.. >_< well.. till den we out cuhz. one~
man, im sick.. gota head ache rite now. throat hella sore.. but im here at school, cant miss no days -_- .. i told u vivan. i was gona have a hard time sleepin las nite, i kept turnin .. n wakin up and i was hella hot last night too. then i had this bad ass dream that it was me danny ma eva jenarae n korean eric.. lol duno why but yeah.. we was at slhs at night time and there was like some event happening.. then these vietnamese crip guys came and tried to jump me o_o wow.. but anyway.. i got beat up in my dream and then i kept tryin 2 get away but they were EVERYWHERE!!! man.. and then all of a sudden when it was all over.. it was all of us walking away from the school going toward 7-11 and all of a sudden danny see's this big black expedition. lol and he decides to open the door and play his new CD he got. haha i duno man the car was unlocked and the cd player worked so he did dat shit. then the lady came that owned the car and took off wit danny's cd. lol so then he ran after the car and all of a sudden... we lost danny =-o crazy dream man.. then the lady came back.. and swooped us up and we went to go buy tickets for great america. lol. and i seen these 2 ladies..they were twins..n they looked exactly like my aunts.. but it wasnt them cuz they didnt recognize me for some reason.. n then.. alotta other weird stuff happened but i don remember it all. gah.. weird dreams when im sick man =( well anyway. im gona end dis for now cuz i still don feel dat good my eyes are lyk diz 9_9 .. hoLLer February 17, 2004 http://katz.ws/page1.php
http://archive.shadowness.com/v2/skins/SHADOWNESS.REBORN.v2.3.wsz
http://www.gamani.com/gmgdown.htm
i hate english.. i wana go home. but i cant cuz if im absent 1 more time i get drop form da class... but i dont do shit in that class anyway. fuk man i know im not gona pass it ='( i duno what it is but ..gah.. english!! fukin bs man. wutever doh. got math class in like 28 minutes. k den hoLLer February 14, 2004
happy valentines day... February 13, 2004 =O its friday the 13th >.< February 11, 2004 eyyy gota letter from chuck 2day! eyyy =D sav mode dat boy in great lakes.. haha he said.. "one RDC [drill instructor] made me walk in front of a crowd with boys and girls in my underwares because i put my pants on wrong it was funny though its pretty fun you just gotta pay attention to detail in here..." damn lol shady business -anywayz.. i got done cuttin da grazz a hour ago.. it was gettin dark 2. =( good thing i finished just in time.. i also saw jen jen when i was on my way walkin home from skool.. =D i sure do miss her and stuff =T havnt hanged out for a while..and also i seen my nigga danny lao havnt seen him for months..since graduation..saw rudy too.. havnt seen him for hella long too llol even though he lives across da street from my house.. -sigh- but yup. friends.. im glad i still keep in contact wit my friends i grew up wit since i was little lol.. like 5th grade n stuff.. yesssssss.. kewl dude. but yeah. gota go talk 2 ppl on aim now da im windows r blinking =_= aight den one..
played biosfear last night. lol man time flies when im playin dat shit. i was on from like 11 till 1 or 2 am. o_o got up 2 level 9 doh =D i gota get up 2 level 12 so i can use this one weapon dis guy gave me cuz he cant use it since its not for his race or whatever.. n he had found it when he was whOOpin some of dem monsters ass.. lol. but yeah. dat games fun =D. im at skoo rite now. gota go 2 class at 1:30 but yea.. hoLLer February 10, 2004 .. man, i kinda liked that site too. .. spent hella hours fixing it .. yeah whatever though.
got a letter from danny yesterday.. he got the letter i sent him too yess. i was afraid it would get lost in the mail or something.. bad luck shit like dat always happens 2 me =P but anyways.. vivan is hella pissin me off man. omg we have too many problems n i dont even wana fuckin stress over dis shit no more. so since she gona block me and all that shit on her aim or wutever. and she obviously don wana talk 2 me cuz she said im pissin her off or whatever. fuck dat. i don wana deal wit ur ass either. so now u can have wat u wanted and we jus wont talk.. ok? see how u take it. fuckin tired of this shit.. February 09, 2004 ..whOa, had a crazy dream las nite.. =X ,, i was in some kind of battle school. and every class had a different battle era. and i went into this one class where there were giant swords and monsters and... some of the monsters were good and they was my teachers.. and they would teach us how to use the weapons and then.. after like a little bit.. the real monsters came out n i was hella scared cuz i didnt wana fight dem monsters lol. cuz i thought i was gona get killed n shit =( n then..n then, so i left and went to a different one.. the nxt room was a battle feild full of agressive football players.. lol. and for some reason.. there was this cheerleader that was flirting wit all deez guys.. and when i came in she started flirtin wit me.. and we started 2 make out n do all dis stuff.. o_o, but then .. da cheerleaders boyfriend was one of the agressive football players.. and he seen her n was like.. bitch wtf. n all dat. lol n i was jus standing there like.. uhhh.. my bad? lol. and .. and.. then he goes up to her and bout 2 beat da shit outta her.. but he doesnt.. but then im like.. dam nigga u gona let her do dat shit? lol. so he goes up to her and he grabs her in like a bear hug position.. and squeezes the shit outa her.. n im like.. holy shit.. =/ wat did i just do...? and so he grabs her and slams her on da fuckin ground cuz he was hella mad. and then.. she all on da ground all crippled and broken.. and i felt so bad.. so i went up 2 her.. and her mask fell off.. i didnt know she was wearin a mask.. lol but it turned outt 2 be vivan... O_O .. and.. i started 2 cry cuz i made the guy .. body slam my own gf.. and he thougt it was his girl.. but it wasnt.. it was really vivan.. in a mask so he thought it was his gurl.. and thats the reasons h'e was all on me n stuff.. but but.. man. i told him 2 do that.. and then now vivans on the ground all broken in peices and i tried2 touch her to help her ..n she cried out in pain saying that she's really hurt..and nxt thing u know.. ambulance come and tell her 2 stay on the ground and they carry her away in a strecher.. =*( weird dream huh? ... yes i know -______- February 07, 2004 masterpeice.. by tEk_tactiKz February 05, 2004
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aw man.. i dont even remember seeing this stuff!! http://vivanhuynh.blogspot.com that was so long ago man.. i was jus reading over it and it reminds me of hekka stuff from along time ago.. heh, and the capricorn thing.. o_o whoa i never saw that.. but yeah. damn i was so tired last night.. i didnt even wake up on time this morning but i made it 2 skool okay.. im in the library right now at chabot and .. its almost time for class. sigh** man i feel like im messin up again.. i didnt mean 2 make u mad by wanting 2 get off da fone while u were mad.. or watever. but i swear i was hella tired and i felt my eyes burning and i started gettin cranky.. so yeah.. well i gota go now.. talk 2 u later.. hopefully if ur not still mad. February 03, 2004
^~i like dat one.. nice huh? =P i never heard of gaston julia before but if u click it theres a page explaining about who he was... =0 February 01, 2004 at marcus hosue rite now.. jus got done watchin da super bowl.. dey all watchin survivor rite now.. fuk reality shows... fuk dat shit. ;P i don see wats so interesting but ohkay. kinda bored rite now.. got homework to do.. and got skoo 2morrow.. fuck i need 2 do my english work too =/ havnt done ANY since skool started.. =/ yeah i need 2 do dat.. im hella tired rite now doh so ima go.. aight den we out.. `one update: janet jackson's titty! =P lol they talkin bout suing CBS or sum shit like dat for this sheit.. o_o 
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