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November 27, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVAN!!!!!!!!!!! =) hope u have a happy happy birfday ..and happy thanksgiving 2 u n erryone else `x] November 23, 2003 on thursday.. i met this lady at the bus stop over by the donut shop across da street from bayfair.. she was 23.. dis black lady.. n i was on the phone.. talkin. cussin.. bein hella obnoxious.. u know like usual =P but.. for sum reason..she didnt get all pissed at me.. she was like.. excuse me can i have a moment of your time? n i was like.. yeah wutsup? n at the time i was kinda drunk.. so i didnt mind.. and she was like..did you know that jesus loves you? and i was like.. yeah ofcourse.. i go 2 church.. n she was like.. i guess had a thing in her mind that she thought i was jus another badass black boy up 2 no good.. bein bad causin ttrouble on da block n wat not.. n i told her..yea i graduated from san leandro high.. i know about god.. etc. n then she had me say this prayer with her.. but before we could finish the bus came..so i got on da bus.and sat down.. she came on and sat rite nxt to me like.. u thought i was guna leave u alone? lol n iwas like naw its coo.. n so we finished the prayer.. rite there on the bus.. it seemed kinda odd.. n awkward.. but its like.. when she was talking to me.. she got to me .. telling me.. u have to seperate yourselves from the rest.. you dont have to be like them.. and do things to fit in.. do things because its the thing to do.. n what not.. and i was thinking about.. u know.. i been chillin.. drinkin.. smokin.. not doin anything.. kikin it day 2 day.. n its like..damm.. i could be doin hella better.. and its like. praying and goin 2 church.. actually doing tha right things.. make me feel good man. and so she invited me to go to her church on sunday..today.. she took down my phone number.. and said she would call me to remind me.. and she did.. called me last nite when i was at chucks house wit vivan n her patnas..we was all drinkin n smokin.. again.. after i had prayed wit her n everything.. n then im rite bac doin tha same shit.. and i jus felt ashamed of myself for doin it .. and i was fucked up while i was on the phone talkin 2 her.. so i was like.. man i gota str8en up dude.. so i went 2 church today.. and after my normal church.. i went to her church.. that she invited me 2.. acts full gospel.. over off 66th or sumthin.. and it was coo.. i didnt see her there tho.cuz there was SOOOO MANY PPL..it was crazy.. but i felt good for atleast folowing thru wit wat i told her i would do.. so yeah.. now im gona start tryin to do better wit my life.. cuz there been so many signs tellin me to do right.. like eva.. she even told me last nite before i went out.. about drinkinn n how its bad n stuff like dat.. n i hella thought about it.. but is till went out n did it anyway.. n its like.. i aint even listening.. not listening..tha same shit that got me in trouble that night i crashed my car.. didnt listen 2 my dad when he told me 2 be carefull..dont do anything stupid.. didnt listen 2 borge n them when they told me not to drive from borge's house to cindy's over on 94th.. but i drove anyway..didnt liste 2 peri when he told me.. mike leme drive for u.. i was like nah it coo.. then didnt listen 2 him again when he told me 2 be coo n dont ride tha strip.. and then wat hapen.. fuked up big tyme..dis time im fina listen tho.. gota do rite man.. and yall can look at me funny n say wut u want.. but real talk. my life is my life. da nigga's that say shit don feel wat i feel and don go thru wut i go thru.. so wut does it matter wut they say.. fuck em.. is how im feelin. so yeah.. shit'll be all good if i surround myself with positive things.. im tryin 2 live lyk that now.. =) feels great !! November 19, 2003
nkstn006: ima laugh so FUCKING hard if he ever went to jail.. nkstn006: omg nkstn006: he would get raped so bad TekBeetz: haha nigga would get murdered nkstn006: and beat TekBeetz: lol by sum angry prisoners TekBeetz: haha nkstn006: and molested nkstn006: lol ya. TekBeetz: dahah TekBeetz: dem bigass muh fukas would molest his ass TekBeetz: haha nkstn006: hahaha show him what its like to be pounded in the ass TekBeetz: dahaha TekBeetz: damm foo..how da fuk could someone get off 2 sum lil kids doh :-X nkstn006: shit man thas jus nasty.. TekBeetz: lol nkstn006: cuz he looks like a bItCh an cant get no girl nkstn006: gotta punk lil kids for some ass TekBeetz: ahha frills doh TekBeetz: ahahhaha TekBeetz: lmao nkstn006: dood aint even black no more.. wtF nkstn006: he was pretty damn dark to start with toooo! TekBeetz: rofl! TekBeetz: damm TekBeetz: haha nkstn006: how da fuck u go from black to white.. get a high ass voice.. an a fucked up nose.. an tell everyone nothings wrong.. nkstn006: dood got serious problems nkstn006: prolly got a high ass voice from fuckin all dem kiddiEs TekBeetz: lol TekBeetz: dam foo hella crazy nkstn006: fuck michelle jackson TekBeetz: smashed nkstn006: done deal nkstn006: . nkstn006: hey look i see that bitch on channel 7 news right now.. nkstn006: oMG TekBeetz: holy shit its on TekBeetz: haha nkstn006: jackson gave the kid wine and sleeping pills.. nkstn006: they say TekBeetz: hahahhaha TekBeetz: nigga looks like a god dam female nkstn006: hahaha kiddies got druNk an knockEd out TekBeetz: haha nkstn006: then FuCkEd nkstn006: lol TekBeetz: >_< TekBeetz: 12 year old boy from los angeles TekBeetz: haha TekBeetz: they said nkstn006: dammmnn
HAPPY 18th FUCKIN BIRTHDAY DANNY MAAAAH!! =D you're finally 18 foo.. now u can stay up late n go 2 strip clubs n stuff haha. and finally.. when someone try n tell u wut 2 do.. u could be like.. beeatch mutha fucka, i'm grown.... a grown ass man foo. daha. rite on man, since its a weekday we gona hav 2 kik it 2 celebrate n junk on da weekend. fa sho we gittin crunk =D "can u say HPNOTIQ.." fa shigady November 16, 2003 took dis thingie from vivan's blog.. uhm, yeah.. i don really think its true.. but it sounds good ;) --- M - Success comes easily to you. I - You are always smiling & making others smile. C - You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it. H - You are not judgemental. A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. E - You are a very exciting person. L - Love is something you deeply believe in. A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people. C You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it. D You have trouble trusting people. E You are a very exciting person. F Everyone loves you. G You have excellent ways of viewing people. H You are not judgemental. I You are always smiling & making others smile. J Jealousy. K You like to try new things. L Love is something you deeply believe in. M Success comes easily to you. N You like to work, but you always want a break. O You are very open-minded. P You are very friendly and understanding. Q You are a hypocrite. R You are a social butterfly. S You are very broad-minded. T You have an attitude, a big one. U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards. V You have a very good physical and looks. W You like your privacy . X You never let people tell you what to do . Y You cause a lot of trouble. Z You're always fighting with someone November 15, 2003 went runnin again 2day.. 2nd weekend ina row.. we should start doin it maybe twice a week doh.. but nigga's be busy n shit. iz kOO.. shit man itz guna be harder then this up in boot camp n im already tired from running one mile. haha got a 7min 5sec today when i ran.. shit my chest felt like it was fina cave >_< .. boot camp u gota run 2 miles easy shit. iz koo doh. good for ur body n stuff lyk dat yada yada yada. im outtie .. P'z November 12, 2003
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.. so it doesnt look that good right now.. fuck man.. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i dont beleive that it just fell apart just like that.. yeah... u prolly don wana have anything to do wit me rite now.. more or less work things out between us.. but like.. if you ever do.... if you ever .. stop being mad at me.. if u ever wana like.. jus talk to me again.. yeah.. u don hav 2 think twice about if i want 2 or not.. becuz i do.. n i duno how ima go day 2 day knowing that we're not 2gether & that ur pissed at me.. n that u cant trust me no more.. i know it my fault anyway.. but i don want it 2 be like this i don wana be wit out u vivan. so.. jus like.. dont hate me.. n stuff. talk to me when u not mad anymore.. please. iuno wut else 2 say fukkkkk this is hard shit 2 deal wit.. kay.. ima jus leave it at that.. n yeah.. i still got hella love for you dont think that's a lie too.. cuz it aint.. jus hope u beleive that `one~
.. i wish we was still together tho.. November 11, 2003 its koo.. u didnt do anything wrong.. November 09, 2003 im dun wit yer site rosava =) peep it out whun tyme tell me if u lyke it =P November 07, 2003 keep goin up & down like a roller coaster.. its making me sick :[ November 04, 2003 spent the night last night in san jose at a hotel becuz i had a physical today. had 2 wake up this morning at 4am and was at the MEPS building from that time untill 4thirty pm. .. hella hours. im so tired right now.. November 02, 2003 Musiq Soulchild_Time [Verse 1] I'd like to take a minute to apologize For not taking advantage of you Through all the years you've passed me by Honestly I really wanted to be mad at you, yes For so many hours waiting, yeah I finally know what it means to be patient And everything has its place, yeah And reason and I've learned that [Chorus] Time waits for nothing And everything is gonna take its time for it to happen Time waits for nothing And everything is gonna take its time Time waits for nothing and no one Cause everything has its time [Verse 2] I used to think that if I tried Then maybe I could change the things that I regretted in my past life But through all the lessons that you taught me I have learned my experiences enhanced my character, yes Now as I look back with what I know now I can say that I wouldn't change a thing Cause I love who I became, yeah And when it's all said and done I can only live for today Cause I've learned that [Chorus] [Bridge] I used to find it hard to believe And almost impossible to conceive, yeah Everything I do revolves around you And knowing that, its kind crazy to me Now if I had a dollar for every moment That I spent watching my days go by Doing, doing, doing nothing I probably never be penniless or hopeless. [Verse 3] So for a while now, I've kept in mind Cause what they say is true That you are of the essence Down to the very last second And I'm so glad that I've grown to Respect you [Chorus 4x] try n guess who/what he's talking about in tha song.. once u got it. listen 2 it again. n it makes alot of sense November 01, 2003 theres too much stress .. hella shit happening all at once right now.. fuckin, family shit.. school shit.. navy shit.. relationshipt stuff.. i wish i could just go away somewhere.. away from people.. away from the city.. away from all this commotion.. n just be by myself.. n just think about shit.. fuck man, i feel myself going crazy >=( i cant keep on putting on a front and suppressing shit i feel inside me. sumtimes i wish i could just die. becuz livin is so stressful to me. ... aye. dont trip. i aint guna kill myself. i just need time to be by myself .. maybe i should meditate or something. im gona be solitary again.. like when i first moved here. keep to myself n shit.. naw meen? so yea.. for whoever cares.. if u see me actin different. dont get offended if i dont speak to you. or if i look at you weird... cuz im changing.. changin my veiw on life.. cant be stuck in this mainstream shit.. so if you got a problem wit it.. im gona stay by myself in this world. fuck the rest. cuz in the end.. its only you. nobody else.. so see me bout sumthin. "time waits for nothing.. and everything is gona take its time (cuz it will happen.) time waits for nothing and no one.. cuz everything, has its time.." -musiq soulchild
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