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October 30, 2003
its been 15 years since i last had contact wit my real mom... says my grandparents.. and she finally calls me 2day.. out of no where. now im thru childhood.. thru highskoo.. thru everything that average boys n girls go thru with their real mom n dad. buh wit out her.. i cant help but wonder how different things would be if i would have known her all them years.. and i dont even know wat 2 say to her.. i still havnt seen her.. i dont even know what she looks like.. -_- man. so much on my mind... sigh* October 26, 2003 fuck halloween party's. October 24, 2003 oh shit. dam vivan. sorry bout last night. my phone's battery died n stuff.. didnt even get 2 say gnite or nuthin.. aw man. but i was helllla tired too.. good thing i woke up on time today tho!! =D guess wut time! ... like at 9:45 foo! hell yea. buh anywho. im jus sittin here waitin for u vivan. .. ima go get sumthin 2 drink.. i think im gettin sick too! :-x u got me sick .. over the phone o_o. yep. it s ohkay if u cant come out 2day doh. i understand '=T . don trip don trip. nxt time =) welp i'm up n outtie dis biatch. `one~ October 22, 2003 anger & frustration. when you say shit, better come wit it or dont come at all. dont make threats n expect not to have a gang of nigga's retaliatin on yall bitch nigga's. and to the one bitch that started the shit. fuck you. i gives a fuck who you know n what u got against me. step up, n get fucked up. all there is to it. let me fuckin know rite now. is shit really real? do yall nigga's really want shit wit me? fuck it, yall niga's wana do battle, lets fuckin do it. 1on1 or a fuckin rumble, its nuthin. and priscilla, u better quit runnin dat bullshit tellin yo nigga's im talkin shit bitch. for i have sum real bitches come n git at yo shit. thats real. .. and no, i dont make threats. ima make a promise that you will get yours. October 21, 2003 RuthlessSavage08: i dled hella rock songs RuthlessSavage08: =D TekBeetz: wow mike. TekBeetz: =P TekBeetz: i havnt talk to charles yet RuthlessSavage08: dude RuthlessSavage08: i think im becomeing white RuthlessSavage08: -.- TekBeetz: dude. u are white TekBeetz: lol RuthlessSavage08: .... RuthlessSavage08: ahhhh RuthlessSavage08: >< TekBeetz: -_- RuthlessSavage08: destiny is catching up with me RuthlessSavage08: =( TekBeetz: lol RuthlessSavage08: ima buyme sum boots RuthlessSavage08: and RuthlessSavage08: cow boy hat RuthlessSavage08: =D October 19, 2003 yea man!! im hella juiced!! ^_____________^ I GOT A "B" IN MY PHOTOSHOP CLASS!! WHooO HooOOO!! ;D look, heres wut da teacher said: Assignment 8 (Event postcard and web image) Content: 4 Skills: 4 Documentation: 4 Points this assignment: 12 (out of 12) Your postcard looks great -- very attractive and thoroughly professional. There is one minor technical problem: you didn't embed a color profile in the CMYK file. You probably forgot to select "Embed Profile" in the Save As dialog box. It may not seem like a big deal, but it makes a big difference when the postcard is printed. The Web version is fine. Presentation: 4 (out of 4) Total points for course: 75 (out of 100) With 75 points, you should technically get a C, but your work has been so good that I'd hate to give you that low a grade. I can't give you an A because you missed an entire assignment, but I can at least excuse your one absence during the fourth week of the course, and give you back enough points to get you into "B" territory. Course grade: B October 18, 2003 went to slz game yesterday. sorry sara couldnt make it in time to see you on yer float n stuff.. =\ we got there too late. waited around to look for vivan.. no luck. went to movies.. watched kill bill. went to manor bowl wit chuck shanesha nick n danny. had 2 pay 10 t get in..didnt even wana bowl so i left wit marcus n priscilla.. went 2 byrons house.. met up hella folks. got fucked up, got my mind off of stuff.. cuz i was hella .. "ugh" that you didnt call me vivan! =( after we made plans .. u stood me up ,=| its all good.. guess some things are just more important.. for u not to @ least call me up. .. yea, like i said. .. its coo. it didnt bother me that i was waitin on u after the game but didnt find u. didnt bother me that i was hella tryin 2 look for u.. but u couldnt pick up da phone n call. nah .. not one bit. didnt even bother me knowin that u was out at da dance .. "gettin yo freak on" wit hella other nigga's. nah didnt bother me. ,=| not at all. (sigh) whatever. guess i did sum'm wrong. had 2 be.. fuck man. i'm such a bad boyfriend *punches self in the face* `x[ lol. jus kiddin =d .. ima go recharge now. . . *sLeep*
(sigh) man.. i shouldnt even be tripin. =( October 17, 2003 i miss my girlfriend ='[ October 15, 2003 on tha reals. i feel this song musiq soulchild_you and me {Verse 1:} I never thought on the first night You would bare what you hold so dear to life And share with me, all your innermost fantasies baby And afterwards in my arms you cried Had me feeling some kind of way on the inside Then I knew it was going to be me and you {Hook:} So if no one wants to believe That what we share was meant to be Then it would be just you and me Against the world And if our friends and family Can't bear to see us both happy Then it will be just you and me Against the world {Verse 2:} Now I'm not the kind that kiss and tell But my man said that he really knows you well But I don't care cause I wanna know you for my damn self And even my sister said you scandalous Said you're known to go from one man to the next But I don't care what she say Cause you're going to forever be my lady {Hook:} I wouldn't care if you was a prostitute And that you hit every man that you ever knew You see it wouldn't make a difference if that was way before me and you And you don't ever have to worry about me as long as you keep it real Whatever is on your mind, you speak on how you feel Stay truthful to me, never lie to me And don't ever keep no secrets No matter,whatever, whatever no Girl you know what I mean They could say what they want But it will never change my views Cause they'll never know you the way that I know you See I'm trying to share the rest of my whole life with you And if we got to be alone So be it baby If they can't understand our love Then we don't need them baby We can go against the whole world Even our friends turn on us Even our family turns on us That's alright Cause as long as we got each other baby Then we can make it baby Through whatever October 13, 2003 fawk man.. vivan!! =( i duno wut 2 do.. i hope nothin happens 2 us from this shyt. u kno wut im talkin about. i hella love you gurl. u kno dat!!?! i hate 2 know that you're crying and i cant even be there for u .. ya kno? try n be coo . for me @ least. i love you i love you i love you! i cant say it enough.. *sigh ...stress
man, this weekend was friggin PACKED wit hella shit to do. haha. havnt been that busy since.... uhm. yeah. well anywho. friday was alan's party.. it was coo. hella ppl showed up but then it got broken up by five oh because i guess the neighbors called on us. but everyone cut out before they showed up. good thing there was a back up spot.. so we all drove down to alan's house off bancroft and chilled there.. waited for ppl to meet up and then we jus started drinkin .... HELLA! haha. man i got sooo perved that nite dude. wasnt even funny =P passed out in tha car when we went to go pick up charles.. then when i woke up.. we were back to da spot already. haha. craziness... had heka fun tho. dammm. but then tha nxt morning (saturday) some old white lady came thru and busted us.. i think it was alan's grandma.. but alan wasnt even home.. haha me charles n danny fuckin BROKE out da house .. ran down da street n was like. "phew..close one" haha. but da funny part was that we left priscilla passed out on alan's bed while tha grandma was lookin thru da house for the rest of da ppl. haha. i don think she got caught up doh. buh dam.. hella crazy doh =P yep yep. then later that night i jus kik it wit jess at jen's house.. then rolled over to da appartments aka tha jungle. =P chilled over dere.. got blowed a lil bit was bored n shook to da house. then yesterday (sunday) went to church. =P it was coo cuz i didnt have to stay for da whole shit.. woulda been gettin out at like 3 pm or sumthin >;P . den i got home .. cut da grazz for a quick 20 bucks.. went over to jen house pick up my charger for da fone and chill till jose got dere. he pick me up and then we went to get his otha patna .. i forgot his name doh. -_- den after dat we went to fremont to go hit up club remix.. shit was hella... NOT poppin.. haha. and then it ended up to be 21+ club anyway! haha . man jose got da info all mixed up. haha it was coo doh. cuz we jus stood out front at jose's car n got drunk anyway. =P after that.. we drove somewhere.. but i dont member cuz i fell asleep in jose's car n then woke up i was at my house.. cool beans ;D aight den. its almost time for me to go to class. hoLLer BaCk woRdiE >;P `one~ October 10, 2003 whOa. yesterday was crazyyyy ! jes drop 1.5 pill of blue star his first time. lol n u kno he needed a watcher . dang foo. i was tha one who had to listen to dat nigga TALK hella much lol. fuckin ecstasy. ;O buh yea. it was coo doh cuz he was tellin me hella shit. n i helped him with some of his "issues" lol. buh yea. we went to john muir middle skoo n we was climbing all on their roofs n stuff haha. at like 12 midnight *-* heka fun. yep yep.. then did hella shit at jmms. i wrote "TekBeetz" in tha big ass sand heap in the back by the portables so that all tha lil kids can see TekBeetz greatness everyday when they walk to class. haha. buh yea. so anywho.. today's friday. there's a party at alan's place.. iono where its at tho. it start at nine pm till whenever!! keg n errythang!! yea. postin more bout dat later doh. `one~ October 09, 2003 blah. yesterday i went to go see vivan.. it was kinda bootsy cuhz i got there like.. too late or sumdin since i took heka long to get ready.. dang i couldnt get up tho! lol. stayed up till like 6 am tha otha nite playin gta vice city. =P so then.. we was chillin at her patna house or watever. then walked to slz to see if some chick name jessica was there for that one nigga 2 meet her or sumthin. =0.. . lol it was funny doh cuz she wasnt there n he think she fake now or sumdin =P . then after that it was fina be 7pm n vivan had 2 go home so i shook bac 2 da bart wit dood. forgot hiz name n stuff. yea. then went bac 2 sl bart. hit up da jungle..chill wit ray evonne kev n wes..then priscilla came . we kiked it. then jes came thru..n then i rolled up a fatty for dem 2 cheef ;D haha. they got faded.. jes had a steel reserve 211 so i siped on that while they got blowed =X . then after that we walked bac 2 jes house.. buh them foo's kept goin da long ass way. lol so i walked the other way... they thought i was tripin cuz i was on 1 or sumdin -_-. buh yea after dat . went home . sleep . ;O got skoo 2day *yawn* don feel like goin doh. -_- October 07, 2003 dam. i shoudla did it lyk diz befo! welp. gotz skoo 2day. no skoo 2morrow.. dammit i wanna see you vivaaaaan!!! gRr.. and i havnt talk to u in lyk 2 dayz or sum'm. =( i miss u alot. n i love u gurl! oh yeah! i voted 2day!! ;D fa shizzle dizzle ,x] go vote!
stress.. October 06, 2003 dang.. its monday foo. n i havnt bLogged since thurzdayy.. =-o oh my. haha. well wutz been goin on since then.. jack shit.. =P sept on friday vivan got to come outside finally!! =P dang man. i was soooo glad 2 see her n stuff *-* daha. nah but really we was jus chillin over at marcus house. me peri marcus vivan n like... HELLA her patna's came trhu.. like 4 or 5 females n like 3 doodz.. it was coo doh cuz they jus sat n da front n talk or sumthin =0.. . n THEN the nxt day ... saturday vivan didnt go home tha night i seen her n i woke up n went online to talk to her buh it was her BROTHER on her sn n he was all like "OOOH the cops are here" bla bla bla.. n den i was like.. =X aw man.. so i hurry up n call dat whun breezie to tell vivan to like..call her house or sumdin cuz she never called yet.. -_- man.. u ALWAYS gotta call doh.. thatz a must. or else u gona be in hekker trouble n not be able 2 come out no mo =( ... unless your parents just dont give a fuck about chu =P haha. but yea. im at chabot rite now.. its almost 12. so ima go to class now =T peace luv n chicken grease ;D fa shizzle dizzle `one~ October 02, 2003 yesterday i went to san lorenzo high to go n visit vivan! =D i didnt even know that lizzy jessica n them would be there.. then i saw eva jenarae and sara too =D. so cool man. i also saw al n milt there too. haha known them foo's since john muir *-* buh shit. lol san leandro high sports teams ALL SUCK man.. they got smashed in tennis and volleyball i heard =o.. . by stupid S L Z >=\ lol. but i aint really mad doh. jus that sl posed to be better then slz. haha. but i was happy anyway to see vivan =) .. n i also seen stan n' andrew n other ppl there at tha tennis game. yup yup.. but i wish i coulda had more time 2 spend wit vivan.. cuz it was gettin dark n stuff.. n it was pretty cold -_- iz coo doh. ...kay i gota get ready to go to skoo now. `one~
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